unable to sleep
Or maybe I just don’t want to sleep.
Everyone’s reading (or re-reading) the Time Traveler’s Wife now … As am I. I’ve always loved the book, but now, in these rather strange circumstances at present, it takes on a whole new significance. I find myself fitting parallels between the book and my situation. And damn, are there a lot of parallels to be found! I wonder when you’re going to start reading your copy, and whether you’ll be as .. not baffled or stunned, because I’ve already read this book twice, maybe more like deja vu-ed … as me.
It’s 3.45am and I’m pretty proud of myself. It’s the first time I’ve hacked something, hehee. Now it’s time for bed, meeting MK and KC for lunch tomorrow. I miss them, I’ve had many happy lunches and teabreaks at Merck with them :)
My little peeing Belgian boy is broken, he fell off the table and snapped his legs. Mom put contact cement on it but it’s still wobbly after 36 hours. Is contact cement made of rubber?? Because it definitely feels like it. David, I want a new one! Haha. A bigger one, with a real peeing action please!
waiting
Have I become so dependent on talking everyday that I feel so aimless when you’re not here? As much as I don’t like to say it, I probably have. Or maybe it’s that niggling feeling of not knowing. Not knowing why you’re not here. Reminds me of long ago, when I got all worked up for so damn long … Over the simple reason of not knowing why. Why someone treated me like that. It still kinda bugs me to this day actually, good thing I’ve got better things to find out now anyway.
I like to think I’m easily contented. A good book and enough quietness to read it. A grey, rainy day spent sleeping in. A lazy afternoon nap. A job with enough money to provide for one holiday a year. A simple, uncomplicated life. I like to think I’m easy going with most people and with most things. So it’s just puzzling how something so small gets me thinking so much. Why does your absence make me feel so strange?
life is messy
It’s really as if the world is against us. Haha. Europe 2009 seems like an impossibility already, since nobody wants to go with me. Hurray for Design II submission on April 16th and reexams in August as well :p AND convocation in mid-July.
Oh well, we’ll just take each day as it comes, like we’ve always been doing.
I need a new set of speakers… I dunno why mine have become horribly bassy and the treble has dieded. Equaliser helps a lil. Oh well I have no money … But if i don’t go to Europe I think I’ll have a lot of money :p haha. I don’t want it to fade …
today is the greatest day
I know, I’ve probably labelled a lot of other days as “greatest days”. And I’ve also not updated this blog for a heckuva long time. And the last time I posted I was sorta… emo.
Well, to cut things short, (and to make things as unsuspicious as possible) the situation’s been totally reversed. Heh. Thank you so much for this gift. For saying what you said, and for your efforts. Maybe I still feel that I shouldn’t say the same things back to you, but that’s just me being jaded after so long. You’re the best.
Remember remember, the 25th of December. And also archive 13 :p
weird
Somehow the dreaded thing has not arrived yet. I’m actually enjoying my life quite a lot now, Friday was the bomb! Went to Oosters Belgian Brasserie with my brother, had a totally fab dinner. I had a pot of mussels which came with a small bowl of fries, he had coq au vin, starters was a sausage platter, and of course there was the beer, of which I had a cherry beer and he had some monastery beer, Rochefort 8. Bill: $95. Somehow I don’t feel the pinch though, even though I’ve been a total miser all this while trying to save up for Europe heh.
And then I made my first overseas call to a stranger. Hahaha. Which made me feel pretty woot but also made me wonder what’ll become of all this :p
relegation
I knew this day would come somehow. But ignorance is bliss, and it really has been a good time. Just that now it feels so incredibly sour. I don’t know what to do, because if I step back it’ll really be all the way back. For now maybe I’ll just try to ignore it until …
pewpewpew
I’ve disappeared again, haha. Life’s not bad at all.
Still hoping that Europe 2009 will be a reality …
my great grandmother passed away last thursday
It was my first time in Mandai Crematorium. I guess the atmosphere there is really appropriate. It’s really cold, both in temperature and architectural sense. Makes you feel appropriately bleak and depressed.
totally messed up
24 hours is not enough. I think soon I’ll have to give up this staying up late thingy .. Because it’ll only get worse. I woke up 1 hour late for work today …
On the other hand, that’s no easy feat :p
Internship rocks, btw. Or rather, I love my fellow interns haha. Unfortunately today’s recent discovery was that they’re all wolves to some degree. KC = Colourwolf, MK = Mingkwanwolf, Kevin = Hornywolf, JH = Shywolf. Have yet to come up with a nick for Loga and Beng Kim though. Topic of the day was about KC spotting a possible new poly intern in the company. Everyone’s eyes were extra big today (MK’s were extra extra big) during lunch and teatime, but this mysterious girl was nowhere to be found. Maybe she doesn’t need food.
They should just be satisfied with Chandra “they all”. It should be noted that this phrase has nothing to do with Chandra at all, haha.
